A letter to my Dad...

Hello Dad,

   It's me...your Sweetheart.  I am just writing to say I love you.  I miss you terribly and think of you everyday.  So many things remind me of you that it's hard not to think of you. 

   If I hear Yellow Submarine play...I remember the time when I was a little girl sitting on your bed and I wasn't feeling well.  You picked up your guitar and started playing and singing that song to me...but in a funny voice. :)  I can still hear it to this day.  If I see a hanging fruit basket in someones kitchen...I think of how yours never had fruit in it...it had candy bars!  Or anytime someone wears socks with flip-flops...yep Ninja Turtle feet.  Reminds me of you!  Brown clothes remind me of you.  Shoshone  reminds me of you, frozen grapes, hotdogs on bread...not a bun, that old weird nose board game that we could never remember the name of...all remind me of you.  Old coffee cups, which I have a collection of now...yes all because of you.  When I look in the mirror EVERYDAY and see the music notes flowing up from my heart...I really think of you.

  I have so many memories of you and although not all of them were good, the good ones are the ones I choose to remember.  You are not with me anymore...I wish you were.  I wish you could have met my wonderful and loving husband...my 3 absolutely amazing children.  I even wish you could have met Rocky.  :)  I wish you could be here for holidays and school events to watch my kids grow.  I wish they could know who they are talking about when they do refer to you.  

  I am so sorry your time on earth was cut so short.  You didn't deserve to go so soon.  Just know I will always love you, miss you and think of you!  You were my Daddy and still are!

Love Forever,

Your Sweetheart!  

Happy 11th Birthday Amya...

  My precious daughter.  My joy.  My world.  I truely have the best daughter in the universe...say what you will, but she is amazing and I am beyond blessed to be the mother of this little...yes to me still little...girl! She is so incredibly smart, the most beautiful, talented, sweet, loving, caring and thoughtful, not to mention funny girl I know.  Call me lucky...I know.  :) 
  Today she is 11...wow!  Just yesterday I was picking her up out of her little bassinet and cuddling her while I fed her a bottle, changing diapers, teaching her to sit, crawl, walk and talk.  It has gone by way too fast! She is now a little lady.  
  Happy Birthday Amya...I love you!

Love Always,
Mom  

Once Upon a Time...

In a little town called Nampa...there was a Starbucks with two crazy baristas!  I mean CRAZY!  It was like you couldn't go in the Starbucks without leaving with a tummy ache from laughing so hard.  Well...that is if the two twin crazies were working.  Today...they were!

I went in for my regular morning coffee...I do this every morning and it is delicious, but today...when I got my coffee I think these crazy baristas put something in it.  I couldn't stop laughing and having fun the whole time I was there...and it was like I was STUCK in the chair!  CRAZY right?! 

Then they even tried to cast their craziness on my hubby...trying to "set the mood" with a make shift candle out of a sample cup, stir stick and whipped cream.  Also a delicious venti ice water with TWO...yes TWO straws!  They were pulling out all their skillz! 

Thankfully after hours...literally...I was able to pull away and come home.  I will have to be careful next time they are working together!  Maybe wear my stunna shades!  :)

Ashley and Jess...you two are pretty awesome baristas!  Lol!

Raising an "almost" teen boy...

  I am not afraid to say, "I have no idea what I am doing!"

 My son will be thirteen in November.  He is definitely changing...in many ways!  He now has a two-piece mustache growing...meaning some on each side of his upper lip.  Lol! I am not ok with him shaving yet, but I am sure it's needed soon.  I just don't want him to grow up.  Waahh!  His voice is changing...squeaking and sounding like a man and a boy in the same sentence,  he is taller than me...yes I know that doesn't take much, but trying to tell him to do something while looking up at him is a bit less scary for him I am sure.  These things I am able to deal with so far, but another change...I am not ready for!

  Yes, I am sure you know what I mean!  He is a boy!  It seems to me that kids are more curious and at such a young age these days.  I don't want to be too hard on him or too easy.  I want him to come to me and not feel embarrassed to ask questions.  I am sure it would be easier to talk to Jed about, but Gage and I have always had a very close relationship and him and Jed can really butt heads at times.  Don't get me wrong...Jed's trying.  Gage is just a VERY stubborn boy.  
 I just hope that how we have raised him and how we have always been very open and honest with him, he will choose the right path to go down whenever he is met with an uncomfortable choice to make. 

  I sure hope my many talks about how hard I had it being a teen mom and doing it on my own, giving up my education for a full time job, having to grow up and miss out on so many opportunities so young will stick somewhere in his head.  I have told him many times that if he makes the same mistake...gets a girl pregnant...I will NOT let him be a deadbeat dad.  He WILL work and help support that baby and have it over to keep him up during the night!  He will not just simply walk away. 

  Gage truly is a wonderful and sweet young man and I know if Jed and I continue trying our hardest he will turn out a wonderful man someday.  It's just getting through these next few, sure to be crazy years.  

  Then we have a teenage girl to deal with!  That...will be oh so fun!  NOT!

P.S...

Does anyone else feel important when they hear the *click* *click* of the keyboard as they type?  I do!  I love it!  




That is all!  :)

Re-Inspired to blog...

  I woke up this morning to about 4 texts from my older sister, Jennifer...aka...Sissy, telling me she had started a blog last night and wanted me to read it.  After about 20 minutes of trying to track down said blog I read her first two entries.  

  First off...wow she can write.  I don't consider myself a great writer and if you have read many of my blogs I break a lot of  "writing" rules, but I have been told by a few people that they love they way I write and really enjoy reading my stuff.  That is how I feel about hers.  I just love reading what she writes.  

  On another note, we haven't had the best childhoods.  Reading her blog opened my eyes to how it was for her growing up before me...she is ten yrs older and to hear some of what she went through before I came into the family was hard to read. 

  I love my Sissy so much...we didn't really get to have much of a relationship growing up.  Being ten years younger there's not a lot we had in common and when she was 18 she moved away.  I saw her here and there through the years, but no real relationship.  That is not until now.  I am so grateful that I DO have her in my life now and for the past few years.  It's been wonderful! 

  So after reading her blog it just made me want to write again.  So...here I am.  Don't know how much I will be blogging or what about, but I just feel like writing.  

  So, thank you Sissy for re-inspiring to write/blog!  :)

Grumpy...

I am GRUMPY!

Are we nerds...

  ...because Jed an I still keep track of the date we went out on our first date?  Maybe it's just so easy to seeing as it was 3 months before he popped the question and only 6 months before our wedding day!  Yep...FAST moving huh?!  Well...we lasted this long...

  Tomorrow...the 20th of January...will be 10 years to the day of our first date.  He took me to the typical dinner and a movie.  Sizzler and Save the Last Dance...to be exact!(side note:  I don't eat steak!)  LOL!  How funny is that?  He did something right though...we're still together.  :) 

  Now...10 years later...I remember that night like it was yesterday...and when I look at him...I get the same butterflies in my tummy...they may be older butterflies, but same ones!  :)

  I love him so much and with everything we have been through I couldn't imagine life without him.  He is my everything, my hero, my best friend, my rock and MY Mr. Right! 

  So...are we nerds?

  Yep...yep we are!

F*cking Perfect

Today when driving home from getting coffee...I had the radio up loud and a song came on that really hit home.  It's Pink's new song F*cking Perfect.  Right now with everything I am going through "inside"...as posted in my last blog...it was great to hear it!  Here's a lil snippet of the song:

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

So...that's pretty much it for now.  Might be posting more later.  :)

Lazy Sunday

Dear Lazy Sunday,

  I would like to say to you...you are a great thing!  Yesterday was long and short at the same time...if that makes sense to you.  Felt like a long day but at the same time flew by!  I got an amazing gift from my wonderful hubby and ran some errands.   

  Today on the other hand...has been a long day, but filled with nothing but pure laziness!  Ok...we have tried figuring out my new phone...getting all the settings right, downloading apps and what not.  You know...all the things you have to do with a new phone.  Oh and the dreaded "adding all your contacts" ugh! 

  Other than that we have all been in our pj's all day and laid around.  It's been great...I love days when you can just be fabulously lazy!  Tomorrow there is no school and Jed also has the day off...so, every one's wicked excited about that as well.

  On top of it already being a good day...it's RAINING!!!  You know how I feel about the rain!!  YAY!!!  Also it's tacos for dinner!  Told you it was a good day...I wasn't lying!  :)

  So as I sit here, sipping my Starbucks and typing you this letter...know that inside I am HAPPY and content with you...Lazy Sunday!  You are a great thing!  I love you!

  Love,
  Brandy

Rain, rain...DON'T go away!

I woke up today...at 11:15...don't judge me...and it was raining out!  I love the rain!  The smell, the feel and how when it rains it's just so dark and grey out...gloomy is nice.  Or at least I think so.

I love the cheerful days as well...you know, the ones when the sun is shining...I call them cheerful for personal reasons...lol...any who, I also love snowy days...as long as I don't have to drive in them.  It's just nothing compares to good ol' rainy days!

These wonderful rainy days like today make me want to stay in my pj's, sip on some delicious Starbucks and cuddle on the couch.  Who wouldn't love that?!  A crazy person...that's who!  Yep, I totally just called you crazy if this doesn't appeal to you!  Deal with it!  CRAZY!  :)

Right now, as I ramble, I am sitting next to the window with the blinds open so I can see how beautiful it all is...

Rain, rain...DON'T go away! 

Ashton wants a new family!

So today when the kids bus pulled up...Amya came running in crying! She says to me, "Ashton didn't get off the bus!"  


So I jump up and call Jed to call the bus company.  He has the number in his phone so it was faster than me trying to find it...which I now will be putting in my phone as well!  Jed tells me he will be home in 5 mins.


I go outside...where Amya is waiting for her little brother...and inform her that Ashton will be home shortly.  She seems relieved and heads in to watch out the window.  


Not a minute later I see the bus coming down the road...again...and tell her she can go to get him.  She runs down the street and greets Ashton...with a huge hug!  AWE!  It was so cute!


I asked Ashton, "What...do you want a new family?"  He quickly replies, "NO I wasn't paying attention!  I was looking out the other window!"  Lol...


So all is well and my son DOES still want to live here with his family that loves him!  YAY!


Funny part is he also brought home a "Bobcat Bucks" for being responsible today!  Ahahahahaa!  Ironic!

Friends make the world go round...and round and round and round!

Through the years I have met plenty of people I have grown to love and care for...some have stayed in my life and some have drifted away. 

I know everyone experiences this...we have our most bestest friends in grade school...then move to middle school/jr. high and those friends might just change up a bit...when high school hits these are the people who you feel will be in your life forever.  You go through some of your toughest times with these friends.  These are the friends that when/if you lose them it hurts more. 

You then go through life...get engaged, married and have kids.  This journey will test friendships like never before.  Those who are on different pages won't understand why you might not have as much time for them or feel replaced even. 

I guess what I am leading up to is that I am so blessed to have the friends I have now.  I still keep in contact with friends from middle school and high school.  I have some amazing people in my life. 

I would have to say that I couldn't imagine going through some days without them.  Having them to back me up, support my choices, tell me I'm wrong when needed...don't worry that's not often...lol...helping out in a time of need, celebrating holidays, and just plain loving me for me!  It's not easy...friendship.  You can't be selfish and there are times when you just don't see eye to eye. 

I love my friends...I don't have a ton, but the ones I DO have...are the REAL thing!  It's not about quanity...it's about QUALITY! 

So, to all my friends...THANK YOU for being real.  For being exactly who you are and loving me for who I am!  You mean more to me than you may know.  :)

On that note...peace out for now.

:)

Let's get started...shall we?

Well, here I go...a blog. A new blog for the new year. 2011...crazy right?

I should tell you now that I am not a professional writer...I do that a lot...you know the *dot dot dot* thing. It's just what I do. I misspell words often, don't use correct punctuation and make up my own words. You will get used to it and learn to love it. At least I hope. :) Oh and I love to put smiley faces a lot as well. :) I guess that's why I call this Ramblings by Brandy Lu...I don't write I ramble using my keyboard.

Annnnyways...I do love to "write" which is why I have decided to start my blog over again for the new year. I don't live an outta control amazingly awesome life filled with thrills and excitement, but I love my life. You won't hear about fabulous trips and wonderful food tasting experiences...mostly just about my everyday life and real world...boring world kinda stuff.

Like I said...nothing more...nothing less. :)

If you know me...even just a little bit...then you know I am a fun loving girl who loves to laugh and make others laugh. I adore my husband and kids and couldn't live without them or my FANTASTICAL...(it's a word...I looked it up) friends!

My husband...Jed...is pretty much the best. He and I have been married for almost 10 years now. We have been through quite a bit together and wouldn't change a thing. Yes we have had our lows, but without them I don't believe we would be the strong couple we are today. He is surely MY Mr. Right! :)

I am currently a stay at home mom and am home schooling our oldest son...Gage. He's 12 and in the 6th grade. He's for sure the quiet shy type. He loves his video games and music. He's a looker too...I'm gonna have to protect his heart from the girls.

Our middle child...Amya...is now 10 yrs old. She is absolutely beautiful and so creative! She's an artsy lil thang! :) She also is often in her own world where I am pretty sure she is riding unicorns on rainbows.

Then...there's our youngest...Ashton. He's 6 yrs old and is he CRAZY! Talk about a personality! He is wild, loud and one of the funniest kids you could ever meet. Some of the things he says just blow me away.

They are my pride and joys...and of course our 2 year old black pug Rocky! :)

So...there you have it...my first blog of the year. Nothing spectacular, but a start right?

Nothing more...nothing less. :)